Saturday, February 23, 2013

Starting a new.

I've decided to jump on the ol' Wheat/Gluten free band wagon. I know people will probably make fun of me and call me a hipster even more than they already do but that's ok with me because let me tell you it makes a difference. I went wheat free for two days and then screwed up big time yesterday. I woke up with a very swollen knee and full of regret for all the bad food decisions I made yesterday. I have an absolute love affair with bread, dairy and sugar but it is killing me. Not only am I diabetic and overweight but my skin and joints are inflamed and very angry with me, which is making life not so fun to live.
I had a friend earlier this morning suggest a video to me about juicing and inflammation. I heard about juicing from another friend recently on facebook and how it has heloed them and thier ailments quite a bit. So after watching this guys video on juicing and inflammation, I'm totally ready to start. I actually plan on going to Costco today and picking up a juicer. I'll be juicing green stuff like: cilantro, baby kale, cucumber, with lemon, turmeric, ginger and I'll add some aloe vera juice (blech) and/or some flax oil. I figure it's going to taste like crap so I'm prepared for that. Honestly, anything that will help me at this point I'm game for!
So any other suggestions, especially about juicing, like maybe how to make it not taste like crap are, are very welcome!
Wish me luck people!

xoxo me

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

bum knee

So I decided to stay home again today. My arthritis is on another level, out of control and my left knee and foot are suer swollen. My knee is so swollen that I can't bend it and when I do it is excruciatingly painful. If I were rich I'd hire a chef, nanny and personal shopper for days like these.  It's a little depressing really. I shouldn't have to deal with this at 33 and it's really not something that I want to have to deal with forever, even the thought of having to deal with it makes me super upset.

So I guess I'm going to try and cut out wheat and maybe all gluten from my diet and see if that works and along with that take some supplements.  Wish me luck!

Monday, February 18, 2013

Time to play catch up.

Sometimes after reading another persons blog I feel inspired, more than usual, to write myself. After reading Cjane's new blog entry I feel that. Except I also feel like I probably have no business blogging ever again reading those words, so beautifully put. She's really amazing. I'm kind of obsessed and she DEFINITELY gets my "favorite Mormon" award, maybe even my favorite woman award (I heart Mormons)!

SO annnnyway,

Today is Monday, Presidents Day and I took the day off from work. Yay me!

I had the most amazing weekend with my most amazing boyfriend, the love of my life Mr. Eric Myers. We drove up to the mountains and went to a dance and boy did we dance, on Saturday evening, hung out with some cool Clampers and their women (widders) and then spent all day together Sunday. We went to a couple of Antique stores in Oakhurst then came home and relaxed together, it was heaven. I honestly can't think of anything I'd rather do than be with that man. He's home for me, as long as I'm with him everything else is ok and for the first time in my life I can be honest when saying I really feel like I'm with the person that I'm supposed to be with and more importantly who I want to be with. It's truly the best feeling I've ever had.


We thought this was funny.
My super cute antique store finds: Artichoke platter, napkins, teapot.

The End. Driving home..

My Blake will be starting his first day at Central Ca Autism Center on March 1st. Last week he had a couple of assessments at the center to see what his abilities are (which are many) and to see how many hours he'll be there. Since he is already in school 5 hours a day, they are giving him 15 hours a week. SO he'll be there about 3 hours a day after school. Not too bad. I'm a little worried that he's going to be extremely exhausted but I think it will be something that he's going to have to get used to. I'm very excited for him. He's a smart boy, he knows how to count, can say his ABC's, knows all his letters, numbers and shapes. He can say so many words now but there are still a lot of things he needs help with like talking in complete sentences and other little things I never even really considered until someone was asking me if he does them. It's pretty crazy.

Blake also started taking the bus two weeks ago and loves it! I've tried to get a couple of pictures of it just to have, it's pretty adorable and watching him smile through the window and wave bye as the bus takes of is pretty much priceless. I almost cried but amazingly didn't!

The first day I put him on the bus which was after he had already rode it a few times, he raaan out to it!

This was on Friday, he was waiting for the bus to come

This time was different though, he said "hold my hand" and I walked with him all the way in like that.

Picking a seat. His friend was in the seat he usually takes but he didn't have a meltdown, was just a little thrown off.

I love my boy soooo much. Especially when he does cute things like this! He also wanted to wear my vans and flip flops but those kind of pictures aren't as A.cute or B. good for black mail.

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Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Life Happenings.

Today I got new glasses. I'm happy with them. I think I can see better and they're pretty cute too. My other ones were alll scratched up so in an effort to keep  that from happening again I am going to try reallll hard to not throw them on my dresser at night before bed and instead put them in my cute little case. We'll see how long that lasts.
Here they are! I would have take a picture with them on me but that will have to come later, its not a good face day.
Tomorrow is a BIG day for my Blakey poo. Not only does he start taking the bus to school for the first time ever (he's only 3 1/2 people!!) but he also has his first of 3 assesments at Central Ca Autism Center. It's an ABA therapy program at Fresno State and he'll be starting there March 1st! He's already doing SO much better and has learned SO much just since starting school in August so I'm super excited to see how much more this is going to help him. He'll be going (based on the assesments) 4-5 days a week for 4-5 hours a day. I'm a little worried about how he's going to handle it since he's already in school for 5 hours a day as it is, but I'm sure it will just be something that he'll have to get used to. I worry for my little guy though and I hope he's getting ll the help he needs. He's the sweetest boy I know and with the right help I think he'll have an amazing future.
Feeding the Turkey Duck at the park last weekend
So, here's hoping that everything goes well tomorrow, it's gonna be a long day for Blake and I but I'm excited to get the process started.
Hope everyone else has a good week.
til' next time. xoxo

Wednesday, January 30, 2013


This was originally going to be a facebook post but as I typed my "status update" I quickly realized it needed to be more...
It all started with this quote:

"I must learn to be content with being happier than I deserve".
I happened upon it on my FAVORITE blogger
CjaneKendrick's blog. She's amazing by the way. It's a Jane Austen quote from "Pride and Prejudice" and it's brilliant. Those words jumped off the page and hit me like a ton of bricks and immediately that seemingly simple quote had answered the questions I had been tirelessly swirling through my head all day.
Lately my life has been crazy and full of change. Some good, some not so good. All in all I truly feel like I'm very lucky, that I'm right where i need to be in my life right now and that I should be beaming with happiness and joy! I found an amazing man who treats me like I've always wanted to be treated, two children who depend on me and love me with all their hearts, lots of friends and family who love me, who are there for me when I need them and Blake is doing so good and learning so many new things. Most things are really great. Others, not so much. Being a single parent isn't all it's cracked up to be and I am finding it to be extremely difficult and exhausting and there are days that I can't wait until those little crazies are in bed so that I can have five minutes to myself or with my boyfriend before I pass out (literally). There are some other things going on too that are pretty stressful and no, life is not perfect but really, whos life is?

For the most part I feel like I should be happy... but I'm not. It's hard to even type that, to admit it out loud. I wouldn't say I'm "depressed" or anything like that, I don't need medication, something has just changed. I'm not overjoyed like I was, maybe even a month ago. Why am I feeling this way? I was asking myself this today. Whats wrong with me?  Why can't I just be content?? I honestly feel that maybe somewhere deep inside my subconscious, I don't feel I deserve to be happy. I don't deserve to have a great life. Why do I not deserve it? I have no idea. I think much like the quote I need to learn to be content with being happy and even though I feel I don't really deserve it, maybe I do?

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

2013, A "to do " list

I decided to come up with a "to do" list for 2013. It's not something I usually do or have ever done for that matter, but I have a feeling this is going to be a good year for me and I wanna try to stick to some of these small goals to make it even better. Maybe making them public will help me do it?!

1. Learn to Crochet and/or knit

This is something that up until recently I had little interest in. But lately I've been thinking about hobbies and the fact that I have very little. I love to be creative and crafty so I figured this would be right up my alley. Plus I can make cool stuff for myself and others! My Grandmother was and Aunt still is really good at it, so I figure it must be in my blood somewhere. I even decided to start a "stitch n bitch" so my friends and I can perfect our skills together while doing some hardcore girl talk!I can't wait to get started!

2. Get in shape

I really just need to eat better. My blood sugar needs to be lower, my cholesterol is high an I need to lose 15 pounds to be at the appropriate weight for my height. I'm not happy about it, I'd rather eat donuts, cupcakes and pizza every day like a true fatty but I just can't anymore.I realize that I'm getting older and I need to get healthy to make sure I'm here for my kids. Wish me luck!

3.Spring cleaning/organizing!

This is mainly a garage project but the house could use it also. time to get rid of some major junk.

4.Blog More

I'm working on it! It feels good and I love to do it but I'm a huge procrastinator so sometimes even when I have a half hour to sit down and blog I don't.

5. Bake More

I love to make cupcakes, cakes, etc. and don't do it enough. Although this my not be a good idea in regards to #2.

6. Read more books

I would like to read at last two, maybe three. They may be only autobiographies but at least I'll be reading.

7. Travel More

I just wanna go places with Eric really. It's my favorite thing to do.

8. Do the Fresno Autism Walk

I missed last years so cant wait to do it this year and hopefully raise lots of money for a cause thats now very near and dear to my family and I.

Well, there it is. There are a few other things I would like to do this year, much bigger things I would like to do but I think I will keep a few things to myself.

On a side note:

It's crazy how much more you appreciate a child's ability to talk and communicate once you have a child who is unable to do it. I'm so very proud of my son. He has improved SO much just in the last month. I see a new light in his eyes and I'm so excited for the months to come and all the new things he will say and do. He talks more and more everyday and even though he has a lot of work to do in other areas his ability to communicate improves daily. He truly amazes me.

We've been going to our favorite park a lot lately and Blake loves it!  We usually pick up cousin Jude and Auntie heather on the way. We're lucky because in January here it's still sunny and warm enough to be outside most days. Maybe not so lucky in July when its 110 degrees though.

Park Pics:




Til next time.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Better late than never! (New Years/Birthday post)

First, let me just say that this blog has taken me FOREVER to write!! Hopefully it makes some sort of sense. I've found that stopping and then starting again does not produce good results but I'm not much of a "writer" anyway, so whatever. I mainly do this as a way to journal with pictures and to get all of the thoughts that pile up in my brain on a daily out of my head (at least a little). So anyway HERE is the blog that I started a week ago and finally just had time to finish..

I've been dying to blog lately but have been SO busy. Busy in a good way mostly. My life is so full right now and I truly for the first time in my life feel like "the lucky one".  I am also finally feeling half human again after being consumed by whatever this horrible sickness is that's been going around. Thank goodness for antibiotics!

So Happy New Year! I spent my new years eve in Long Beach with Eric, his BFF Haig and his lovely girlfriend Marissa. We rang in the New Year at a place called "Alex's bar" while watching The Aggrolites perform. It was a great night filled with dancing, drinks and love. I can honestly say that a year ago I never would have imagined that Id be ringing in 2013 with the man of my dreams, in Long Beach, watching the Aggrolites play. It's mind blowing what a difference a year makes.

Alex's Bar has a photo booth so OF COURSE I had to partake.
 I don't know who that dude is on the left. Photo bomb!

Marissa, Eric and Haig

Happy New Year!

New Years day was spent driving around Los Angeles. We drove through Beverly Hills (which I'd never seen), went to Melrose and had breakfast at Vienna Cafe which was delicious but has the worst service EVER, it was so bad that it was comical. After that we decided to head over to The Grove and check out the shops and Farmers Market. There were so many different little shops and yummy smelling food at the farmers market, I cant wait to go back!


Eric at the farmers market in an actual phone booth!                           HOLLYWOOD


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After hitting up the Grove we drove up to the LA Observatory at Griffith park. My favorite thing about that place was the amazing view!

The Observatory from the bottom
Eric and I in front 

Marissa and I at the top! The Hollywood sign was behind us.

Even higher up! It was SO beautiful up there.
And so ended our First full day in LA. It was awesome. That night we at at Jimmy's deli and then went to Barney's Beanery for  a couple early birthday drinks. They were super nice there and one of the bartenders was an actor who I actually recognized, it was strange. He was wearing a shirt that read "death to hipsters" or something along those lines so he and I hit it off instantly! ha.

The next day (our last day) was my birthday so Eric took me to the Santa Monica Pier, which I loved. Being able to see the ocean for my birthday was really cool AND I even got to see a dolphin! After that we ate at a neat British pub and headed home! I think one of the most favorite parts of our trip was actually the drive home. We made a couple of stops off the grape vine. One was at this water  education center which had an observation deck with a really pretty view, I forget the name though and the other was at Fort Tejon to see the grave of Peter Lebec who was killed by a grizzly bear. There is a Clamper monument there so Eric was excited about it. It's a neat park where they used to have civil war reenactments and such but I heard that because of funding they don't do much there anymore.


Peter Lebecs Grave

Clamper Monument

Cant wait for the next adventure!

Happy Weekend!